there is no God. this is manufactured so you can have a scapegoat to blame someone while you are having a hell of a time 10 years trying to catch what I surmise is a whistleblower that wiill get you all fired
It's okay to feel shitty, so okay! Sometimes things are just shitty, life is not perfect. And if there's too much shitty stuff in your life: change it or leave it. Best recipe to get happy again, worked really well for me.