Sometimes the "I would love to: see that person, do that course, get that body I really want, spend time by the ocean or out in nature, travel to that picture postcard place etc" . Becomes a distant memory. How sad is that? How sad it is to substitute
Feeling unsure and lost is part of your path. Dont avoid it. See what those feelings are showing you and use it. Take a breath. You'll be okay. Even if you don't feel okay all the time. This too shall pass. Louis C.
Forgive - most people misunderstand the reason for forgiving them for their hateful behavior towards you, it never means you want restoration - it only means they are not worth your energy, power or peace of mind.